11 more days.

Anxious or excited?

I was not in a good mood ever since the start of the day . I'm disturbed with things that happened around me . When i saw that 'something' happened again , my heart ache . I shouldn't be feeling this way and that's for sure but the past just keep playing in my mind that make me over cautious. I am troubled by suspicions . I try to put that feeling aside but it doesn't worked . I've been observing and i think that what i felt was true . I can't see the sincerity in you . You showed a little more affection for others and you treat them with no barrier between . It was all the opposite side when you were with me as if i was your acquaintance . In the end , i put the blame on others and that was when that person thinks i'm just being extremely over sensitive . When this happen , the tie and bond that i have with _____ worsen due to my sensitiveness . I just can't get angry with you but i'm not able to put up a fake smile and pretend to be happy . I just couldn't keep it to myself and that's my weaknesses . When you are feeling blue , no matter how i try to cheer you up , i will still fail . You start to rejoice with another clique and when i try to play apart , you don't seem comfortable and excited . I can't control my emotion when it has something to do with friendship nor relationship . In conclusion , I will put the blame on _____ if it have a correlation with ___ . If not , i will share my problems with my closest friend. Am i being unreasonable? Indeed yes but that bad habit of mine refused to scrape off . I hope the bonding among us or rather between us could be purify .Don't you think?