"Telajak Perahu boleh diundur , telajak kata padah akibatnya"

Yesterday post:
"I'm doing fine and that's all you need to know."

But today , it was the opposite.I may be laughing and having fun with the seniors and smiling to the cadet but i was crying on the inside , terribly.I can lie to anyone about how i felt today but i can never lie to myself cause i know myself best.
If i knew this would happened , i hope that i was born with no feelings.
NO FEELINGS.
So that i do not have to know and feel what is love , sad , angry , jealous etc.
I can never voice out my opinion , express out the inner feelings i had because in the end , i would be blame for everything.
Yes , everything.You can convince me anything but i'm sorry.
The mindset i have right now is "I'm at fault and people will blame me".
Even if i was at the innocent spot.
Nobody can changed the mindset i have right now , and if there is someone who could make me think positively again , i *secret*


The problem is not about what i see nor what i hear.
I could possibly understand that you forgot.
It's the words that hurt this feelings deeply.
Do you realise that?
I've been impacted thrice.


Sesungguhnya , tidak ku sangka bahawa aku menjadi beban dalam hidupmu.