Dear bloggy , i'm sorry to have abandon you for quite sometime.Been busy with school and dance practice.Even if i'm not , sister have been occupying the seat i'm sitting right now.

Dear bloggy , i have something to ask.

Have i not been a good friend all this while? Or i did not try hard enough?

Or is it because my communication skills is terribly poor?

Were their standard to high that i didn't meet even one to be regard as friend?

I've been experiencing the same thing in friendship whereby i try hard enough to please people and be kind but i don't get the same treatment.Instead , my close friend or someone i love somehow deserve what i thought could be mine , at least.It's not that i'm hoping for it.Neither do i want to be in the center of attraction.All i need is acknowledgment but none.

I've been trying to preserve the friendship i had with people but apparently , these people chose to be with someone i'm close with.I kinda lost faith in making friends.Its not that i did not try to keep the old ones but i felt being dumped.This hurt most when you want to stay in contact with the people but they're just don't wish to be bothered by your presence. 

Its like saying ' Sorry girl but i prefer to befriend with she/he than you.You don't have what it takes to be in my memory.'

It may seemed like a norm ; people own preference.

However , have you try accepting my flaws? And if i'm in wrong , have you try correcting my mistake?

Have you try to at least give me a chance to be close with you? 

Friends are for life & friendship are meant to be treasured.Thus , i always took the effort to ask around.Almost each and everyone of them.One funny thing is that why some people choose to stay mute till someone volunteer themselves to break the system.

Is it the ego? Or because they believed that even if they don't start the spark , someone is always there to do it?

Sound arrogant enough?

Maybe you don't feel comfortable having me around.

Maybe i'm just an irritant to you.

Seemed like i've failed in keeping my lovelies.

With that , i shall withdraw.