When the blues set in, the heart start to pour

" I told the producer i don't want to act as the broken hearted girl in the scene "

In real life, i have to play the role once again.It seemed like the heart doesn't know the meaning of  'had enough' . It bled, healed and bleeds again.Heart, i'm sorry for treating you so badly.Well if only you're not stubborn enough.Mind had been cooperating well with me but the heart that always pulled me back.The only reason i speak nicely and gently is because i want no argument from both parties.In fact, i did not want the feelings to overrule my mind.I dislike being labeled as someone who control other's life and decision.That explained why i could speak up, negotiate and lastly smile though i was greatly bruise at heart.

It wasn't two-sided.

I found love and it gave me happiness once upon a time.People's mindset changed as they grew older.In fact, the surrounding and past experience plays the vital role in their changes.In the past, I had little patience and huge ignorance but i was lavished with love.Now, i have moderate patience and less ignorance but i had one-sided love.It's not really an unrequited love but a love without commitment.Karma did its job but i wonder how long more should i be punished.I've tried to remedy what had happened.I even tried to please the person who i think need to be pleased.In fact, i even tried to prove to everyone else that i'm a changed person.One thing for sure, i've discard those attitude which i myself found unpleasant.If you notice it, i thanked you for that.If not, you need to discover more about me.If you find that unnecessary then don't blame me if something may happen.

I'm predictable and all of you know it.

This is just the beginning.There's simply many obstacles that await us.That is why we are gifted with strength so that we will be able to overcome it.