I yearn for a smile like my first anniversary <3

I need to make this clear.

Many really thought i'm leading a marvelous love life.They pray for my happiness and many do like the partner i'm with. Thank you for all your blessing.

 They always say ' Haini, you really have a good partner.Cherish him '

Well i did. I made my part.I put in so much effort but i just felt that he's not deserving me. Someone even told me this ' I think you've done more than you need. Take a step back '

I'm pushing myself too much and i didn't realize it.

I don't have a story to share cause everything seemed complicated.

Ironically, people thought i'm fine with what is happening.Truth to be told, i'm not.

I may not be a good lover but they know i've tried my very best.

And i'm amending this from a friend post : " I have a boy in my heart but he doesn't have me in his heart "

And i asked myself, how long more do i have to live in woe?