I won't follow your footsteps.I'm going to be everything you're not.

Something is bugging me.The same old problem is repeating again.I really hope that you could accept the fact that i'm easy with everyone. In fact, i always hope that you could change a little on your perspective. I understand the agony and misery you went through for the past 20 years though i can't really feel it.That is because i'm still a kid when shit happened.You told us white lies because you didn't want us to keep that hatred for someone.I kept that white lies with me until the truth revealed at the age of 15.Everyone knows he has a wicked character.He had definitely impacted our life, in a bad way.He has gone too far and its unequivocally hard to lead him back to the right path.The day you parted with him, i thought life could still be normal.Whereby i'm free to keep in touch and meet those you hate.However, i ward off from him simply because i didn't want you to feel hurt by my actions.I wanted to avoid unexpected dispute from occurring.I feel safe when you're happy.I'm glad when you finally find your happiness.Alhamdulillah.
But please be more understanding about my needs or should i say my wants.I want life to go per normal.You need to accept the fact that i'm still connected to them.At least allow me to be myself especially in front of you.I do not want to keep things from you though i know i should for you will go unsound when the news been told.
I beg you.Please don't excruciate my mind.You know i love you.
There's a song that goes ' comes your mother.Who's next? Your mother.Who's next? Your mother.And then your father '
Look, you are always my priority after Allah and Rasulullah.