When two became one

If you asked me how i felt one month ago, i should say i was emotionless.My mind got too numb to even think of  what had happened.On a positive side, i got so relax.I was doing just fine not until the second day.I was terribly overturn and damaged.No one could really understand the agony i went through.Today is just another heavy date i have to face.I had my ups whereby i know i was strong to let it go but on the other hand, i didn't know it was just intensely hard. My one month can't beat the five years.For all the things i did, just remind me of him.From activities to songs to clothing to places to food etc.Almost everything.Every time i opened my wardrobe, my eye catches an orange shirt.When i browse through my clothes, i tend to stop at the green jacket.Worst was mum wore it whenever she felt cold.It has been a rainy day for me.I definitely don't look forward to today and 28th.It pulled me down right to the basement.No one likes to be in that situation.
Oh my dior, what should i do? I'm at my lowest point right now.


I wish there was something i could do to amend this.
15 October 2010