I'm left stranded for the final time, going through the moment of pain

I can't forever live in misery because i know the time will come for me to overcome it with a peace of mind. The fact that i love smiling and laughing gave people the impression that i'm a happy goober kid or even Ms Giggles. The flip side that no one has yet to see is the oppressive sorrows that she needs to face and the ache she felt.Your final statement for me had once again turned my sunny days into one heavy rainy days.You took away my shelter and left me drench.I taught myself to stay strong and unconsciously, i thought myself to be stubborn and cold at heart but i forgot to teach myself to give the space and love for other guys when you choose to leave me.I don't know why i got additively attracted to you.I don't know why i'm still hoping when i know it's already gone.Perhaps gone forever and never come back.I don't know if i can love you forever but the least i know is i still love you like how i did 35 months ago.The least i know is when i look at you, i felt love and captivated.For all i know, no one has ever make me felt that way except you.Now, the happy moment had just officially ended.When you declared that on the 27th Oct, i know i've lost you forever.All i could do is to see you walked away, not turning back.Not even a glance, living a better life without me.