Hati adalah raja dalam diri. Oleh itu, lurus dan betulkan ia supaya empayar kerajaan dirimu tegak di atas al-haq yang tidak disertai oleh iringan-iringan pasukan kebatilan.

Today mark the 28th day of the fasting month. Time flew so fast that Ramadhan is coming to an end, very very soon. This year Ramadhan was indeed a challenging one. 7 August 2011 cum 7th Ramadhan challenged my mental extremely much to the extent that i feel like giving up. The pain was too excruciating that it became numb. I chose not to turn to anyone except Allah. He knows what i don't know and i believe, he' s preparing something better for me in future. Every prayer i did leads me to tear, hoping for a better day & being a better person. I'm a girl with a fragile heart yet it got broken not once but umpteen times. The whole process of difficulties i went through was such a confusing and frustrating one. I bet no girls would stand it like how i did. The solution was easy but i chose not to use it. Well, love is a real sucks when the other parties does not know how to appreciate it. Instead misused them. 

Now, the bleeding is over but the sad thing is it left a scar. A deep scar, an ugly one. Whenever i look at the scar, the incident start doing a  flashback and there you go, feeling a bit of pain left. Actions and words can really impact a person's life. How i wish this people are responsible enough for the scar they had make on us.

 I have no grudge on people who threw shit on me. I don't want to be at the losing end just to satisfy myself, ensuring that you will fall hard. However, if you feel what i felt, that is the perfect time for you to do self-reflection & stop being such an unworthy person. When you love yourself, you will start to appreciate the people around you and most importantly, be sensitive to the need of others. I have my flaws and i somewhat believed that my flaws had lead me to this unpleasant situation. I can change, provided you sincerely share with me what need to be change. Nevertheless, not all flaws can be converted into strength cause it could be part of what a girl has. Therefore, one thing i've always ask for, till now is someone to accept me for who i am and i really mean it. 

Who is the one?