Assalamualaikum. 

It's 1.21AM and i've halfway done with baking. Alhamdulillah for the orders we have received. I hope we are able to meet our target. It has been a tiring journey i must say. 

But today, i do not wish to talk about my baking. I do not wish to talk about my Bake Sale. I have something else, more important. I see the need to share as i felt a bit bothered by it.

On 8th April, i met someone. Someone who used to play the vital role in my life. Someone who has definitely turned me from zero to a little something. At least, to be of someone better. Alhamdulillah, i can't be more thankful to where i am now.

So we met simply because He want to pass me my belated birthday gift. Of course i didn't expect anything except for a wish from Him. That's what matter most as i grow. So from a quick meet up, it became a long calming night. Our conversation starts at 9-ish to exactly midnight.

He shared with me his personal life story. What happened throughout the 6 years since we parted. From the interesting stories to a saddening one; his love story. I can't deny i was surprise to know the amount of girls he had dated to the last one, whom he seemed to have love dearly. But it didn't last and they broke up. And what happen to me throughout the 6 years? I did the opposite. I remember involving myself much in dance, up till now, enrolled myself to Pergas and get involved in their Youth Club to working full time at Call Centre. So, there was nothing about dating a guy and getting myself into another relationship.

While he shared with me his last relationship that does not seemed to work it, i looked at him and i could feel how heartbroken he was. Surprisingly, i felt a pinch but i couldn't understand why. For all i know, it wasn't love i felt. He said it was Karma. I thought it was more of his intention that does not seemed to be right. Then he asked if i ever date any guy or having a boyfriend. I answered no and he was taken aback. I would do the same since 6 years have passed. I told him my last love was too impact-ful that i could not even get myself into another relationship. All i could do or rather have courage to do is to like and admire someone from far. Admire someone secretly, getting all happy when i get to see my crush but taming myself to not go overboard. I felt it was unfair that i couldn't go further as much as i want but at the end of the day, it's my choice and my ways.

I guess i'm happy with how i lead my life and he is happy with his. 

To you young man, you have the qualities of being a husband. You have a vision and that alone is a plus point. You are diligent, smart and mature at the same time. May Allah lead you to the right one and i hope by then, you will love wholeheartedly.

I will be waiting.